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happy to pissed @ 10:18 p.m. on 2001-07-16
why am i in the mood to update?? who knows...i dont even feel like typing thou;( bahh..im soo tired...like soo tired...all ive done is work for the last 3 days...and it sucks...but i get til saturday off..and im HOPING to get rid of my saturday shift so i can go downtown and see "spoiled plan"..i hope i can:) neways ya...i cant fucking wait til next tuesday....i asked my parents last nite at dinner if i could go to dougs cottage. it would be me, karen *HOPEFULLY*, dave, armstrong, doug and greg.....lindsay cant come:( i mean SHE WANTS to..but doug had a hard time trying to convince his dad since she is going out with armstrong and appartly dougs dad is REALLY catholic and NO SEX ALLOWED...but honestly its not like army and lindsay are gonna BE CRAZZZE at it...and its not like he is taking advangange of her or anything..bahhh...well lindsay *THE PLAN*:) HEHEHEHEH ill try hun:) i really want her to come..like everyone is getting soo close now:) and they are all my fav people;) i love em;) soo ya..........itll still be funnnnn;) OH YA..i never told u what my parents said...they said yes........well my dad was the TYPICAL dad asking all the questions.."who will be there"..blah blah blah:) but ya....:) im happy. neways im watching sum movie..i dunno what it is called..i just found it on tv..its okay......but ya.i have a message...frommm...ELLISIF:) yaya..i have a feeling im spelt her name wrong there...LOOKS GOOD:) hahah ok..well im happy..life is happy right now..but i shouldnt say that..cause everytime i say im happy..the next sec something messes it up.. ya so....ya...i havent talk to andrew since..ummmm.....i saw him at the show on thursday..and he left a message on my icq saying "liking someone is for suxas" in that exact words...doug was telling me that on the ride home with him he kept saying "chicks suck"..soo im guessing that he like thinks i dont like him......i like him but not as much as mike at this moment..like gaaa...even though normally it would bug me that i havent talked to andrew i this long...i dunno..it doesnt?! like he is a great person..but i dunno..there is SOMETHING that i dont like *doug u know what im talkin about*....like thats what me and doug talked about..i dunno..i really dont feel like telling u all..so ya...just now all ive been thinkin about is when mike will get home...blah blah...i havent seen him in like 3 weeks maybe...and i spilled my guts out to him on wednesday and ya...but he wont be home til..I DUNNo...i just wanna see how things go:) u know....ok. why does it feel like RIGHT NOW andrew is being a chicken and getting my best friend to ask me if i like him or not...and a YES OR NO answer is what is needing..like maye karen is just wondering..but it is SORTA suspesious that just AS ANDREW comes online and is on for 3 min karen sends me that message..geez...just ask me urself......GAAA..ok...well im gonna ask karen if he asked her to say that...FUCK why do people expect a fucking YES OR NO ANSWER.......WHEN do people learn that im a fucking confusing person and i dont make my descission in TWO FUCKING SECONDS....gaaaaa....girls are complicated..that is alll i have to fucking say. bye..now im pissed off...bye
update 2 min later,,WOOO sorry i really overreacted there.ok...karen send me a message saying "tell andrew ur answer " and she left....so im talking to andrew....and i calmed down..like BIG TIME...he just asked me "what was up with u at the show..u were acting really weird"..so my reply being the CALM person i am was
"how did i seem weird..
like im not saying "I WASNT WEIRD BLAH BLAH" In a pissed off mood...
i just wanna know what i did to seem weird in a calm voice:) *laughs* just curious?!"
he hasnt replyed yyet...soo LETS SEEE:) i know u love this play by play;)
"yea hi am special, im in brampton right now....i dunno, like u didnt say bye or nuthin, just kinda left and whatever,, just seemed like u weere telling me to fuck off"
YA i will admit i didnt say goodbye:( but still....it was really only because i was IN A WEIRD mood that nite..i didnt know what i was thinkin..he was fucking drunk and seemed PISSED so i dunno....there isnt an excuse...but i gave him one neways...but its true....oh well...im calm...bye
 Tawnya
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