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life-friends @ 11:05 p.m. on 2001-11-28
karen i love u. how many times have i said that in my journal..karen just updated *weezerchick*.....i was half way through and i almost started to cry. what made me cry...is that its weird to think that someone feels the same way u do...i mean just read her entry... its weird...and soo true....i mean i love my friends to death..and i know we AL dont have the same opnions about things, and it is weird how we survive through it all...it is... i mean i feel comfortable around these people...expecially karen. i mean i will admit we are different people, but at the same time we are the time...karen put it PERFECTLY *yes ihad tears in my eyes reading this* , but i love just being with them, and laughing at dumb jokes, and just stuff like that i'll remember and treasure. and i can always have fun with tawnya. no matter what. me and tawnya just make obscenely stupid jokes, and laugh at stupid things, and it makes me feel good to make someone laugh, even if thejokes i'm making are retarded. i know that tawnya won't judge, and i ca always be my complete self. i don't have to think about what i say, b/c even if it's gay, we'll just laugh about it. and the inside jokes, oh my god. there are so many, and i don't think anything would be the same if we hadn't have become friends. BLESS YOU, SMASHING PUMPKINS!!!! me and karen have been thru SO MUCH..i mean SOOO much....i really dont know WHERE i would be without her. the smashing pumpkins brought us together, and everytime i hear a song by smasing pumpkins my mind flipps through all the great memories of the last 7 years ive really known karen. and the scary part is, that karen probably would have not been in my life for 5 years if she would have WENT to that all girls school. i always wonder would we still be friends, or where would i be now...i know for a fact my life would have not been soo amasing.. everynite i go to bed *in seems like in the past 2 months this has happened* and my mind goes throu all the BEST TIMES in high school.....and i really cant get the first camping trip in gr 10 OUT OF MY HEAD..thats where it all came together.....thats where the friendships started...and i mean the road has been LONG, FUN, TWISTS HERE AND THERE...but amasing...i mean i had a huge group of friends thru gr 10-12 and it all got narrowed down to the people i can have fun with and feel comfortable the most..i mean i love all my other friends ive been with since that camping day...and we will ALWAYS have the great memories....but the people im with now, even though we arent perfect friends...we have damn fun and weve been through alot. right now is a WEIRD time....i mean me and karen were just talking on the phone..and she said it is weird..but karen said it wasnt the right word..i thought about it..and IT IS... i mean all i can think about is univeristy right now..and i think everyone eles is looking towards future plans...and as karen said do these plans include us all?? like what now? what about the friendship. if anything.....i dont EVER EVER EVER EVER want to end my friendship with karen...ever....i feel as if more than 80 percent of my memories i have with karen....and maybe this isnt true cause i dont know the future..but i feel as if i could never find a friend as good as karen...i mean we are different and that whats so great. i can make a TOTAL AND COMPLETE FOOL of myself and i know karen will just laugh and not give a shit. ya the last few days have been fun....if u have the chance go to www.quizyourfriends.com that has been all me and my friends have been doing....i think we have all done like 3 quizes about ourselfs..hehehhe and u wont BELIEVE how much stuff i learned about them......its weird. i mean things are perfect and i dont think they will ever be......but im scared...........just of little things...i mean i WONT AND CANT go into details about what in here....because it is personal....but i just dont know where the future is headed..and it scares me....but in a way makes me want to walk up every morning.
 Tawnya
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