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mentally drained. @ 7:35 p.m. on 2002-01-09
how did i end up having SUCH a GREAT day yesterday, and today is soooo crappy...i mean i didnt get to sleep til like 1ish last nite, cause i was too damn hyper to sleep, and i was reading "chicken soup for the teenage soul" and listening to my FAVORITE jimmy eat world. i really cant express what their music does for me.i just get happy. neways i woke up this morning ACHYING...but i slowly and surly got outta bed. the whole school day was CRAP. english class our teacher yelled at us for not "thinking on a higher level"...every DAY he gives us a lecture about university and how we are gonna get there and NOONE is gonna care about us..and BLAH BLAH BLAH...i mean he pretty much worded it in a way that he said "YOU GUYS ARE STUPID"...and it wasnt me who just noticed it, everyone did. i mean REALLLY fuck, he already told me i was stupid, so WHY NOT TELL EVERYONE. this is the REASON people have breakdowns...because it is teachers like HIM, that are suppost to be GUIDING us, and trying to teach us...meanwhile this teacher just tells us we SHOULDNT be in OAC, dont even THINK about university because we are STUPID. so stupid that we should just DROP out. i mean he told one kids parents at PT interviews that he should just drop out cause he isnt going anywhere. UMM HELLo?! do U FIND something wrong with this. i do. i was in guidence today, and i saw some people in my english class looking at the schdulal for english night school for second semester. oh did i metion that my teacher said that HALF the class is sitting at a 50 percent average right now. im sorry, we arent all THAT STUPID. neways to add to that, in second period my science and society teacher told us that he has marked more than half the classes ISU'S and so far only 2 PEOPLE HAD GOT over 70%. *god i hope he hasnt marked mine*..i mean im really depending on this class to bring up my average..but BOOM that went to hell. neways i could tell you how the guidence councilor today didnt believe i was 18 *she says i look so young:(*...great ANOTHER person telling me i look young. geez..i guess it is weird because ALL of my life til i hit like 16 people ALWAYS told me i looked OLDER. and now i look and act like a little kid. oh well. i guess that wont be so bad when im 40 and HOPEFULLY look 25! hehehe. ya well im just so mentally drained...i had a nap when i got home..and i have to write a LOVE poem tonite and have a calculus assignment due:( bah.....ill write about how much LOVE SUCKS... neways i should really do something:(
 Tawnya
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