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hurting inside @ 12:08 a.m. on 2002-01-10
i dont want to scare anyone..i dont want anyone to feel bad for me...i dont want people to ask me if im ok..... i mean that is not why i say things....i dont need symathy..i really appricate that people care, i KNOW they do....and i know i have people i can ALWAYS talk to....*thanx u lindsay*....something happened tonite...i dont know what it was...but i wrote a 7 page letter to my parents telling them EVERYTHING...everything that has been bothering me about school....ive been crying for a good hour and acually stopped when i started writing this....but everyday my mom asks me what is wrong..and i want to tell her soo bad that school is bothering me SOO much and i dont want them be disipointed in me..but i cant get the words out to tell her...i tryed before but all i could say was "im so stupid"..... so i wrote this letter....im not gonna reread it, cause i KNOW if i do ill rip it up.......this is HOW I FEEL and i think my parents should know..i KNOW it might hurt them to see how hurt i am.........and that what makes me soo upset......i dont want them to know im hurting.......... ok...bye. please dont worry about me. i would never do anything to "serious" hurt myself..i never have and never will...it is all emotional pain...
 Tawnya
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