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friendship @ 2:56 p.m. on 2002-02-13
I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!! its weird that people keep telling me that they havent seen me this happy in a long time! its weird, cause i feeeeel soo happy lately, and really have NO BIG reasons to be! the last few weeks i have a different outlook of life, and am thinking more clearly! im not confusing myself!!! its a great feeling. i had a talk with doug last nite, and i was being sorta corny telling him about stuff i reliesed, and how much my friends mean to me...but still, its good to know they feel the same way. we were talking about how it is hard for us to bring OTHER people *ie-bf and gf..and new friends* into OUR GROUP. i mean it is NOT like we are judgementally towards other people *we arent* it is just that, i really cant explain. i guess we have been through SOOO much, and have soo many times together that it is hard for people to ALL of a sudden come in and be on the same "level" we are. i was talking to karen about this during mass *ya ya i know...bad me*...but it is weird. and it is soo hard because whenever someone finds a potiental "mate" then the person goes and has two different lives. well not exactly...but doug asked WHY we cant bring them into our group...is it because we are afraid that they will think we are TOOO weird and fucked up. or the fact that they just wouldnt fit it...it is more of the "fitting" in issue! i dont WANT anyone eles in our "group" so to say...ive had fun with the people ive been with for the past 4 years. karen was saying that its soo hard because we are all going "separte" ways in a few months...tis made me sad:( i mean i WANNA get outta pickering, but i feel as if i dont want to lose these friendships...and it is like starting a whole new life:( but i guess we have to live now, and MAKE THE BEST of the time we have!!!!!:)
 Tawnya
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